What i really want?
Think i have used this title sometime long long time ago.
Having Jean by my side, I am starting to know what i really want. I just dont want to have a broken heart again. I dont want another idiot like Aaron who grabbed Jun right from my hand 3 year 1 month 15 days ago.
And this pattern is totally black listed. Was angry with Jean last night thanks to her 24 year ‘god brother’ whom she knew on some maple story like games. From what i’ve heard, is a totally Aaron style. A fucked up pattern that i never want to encounter again especially with Jean.
I am a person who never want to get hurt again after that two years of agony with Jun. I dont a 2 year reletionship. I want one that can last for the next 50 years would do.
I sensed something bad from Jean. I dont know what but was not too happy when her ‘god brother’ was trying to be funny again last night. Definately i will tell Jean to ignore him. Everyone knows that i am a granade waitin for its pin to be pulled out. I am a real hot person that would explode when the times right.
This guy i suppose, might be trying to break us up and grab Jean. Not that i am too sensitive. This has happend. Telling Jean and her ex craps that might not be true resulting them breaking up and not contacting. While Jean’s broken, tried to be the nice guy asking her out and grabbing her hands. What an ass. Even the blind knows his motive.
I aint sure if i am too much to stop her contacting that ass. I just want to relax and give Jean as much freedom as i could. I aint sure i could. But i also want my freedom. As i’ve said, girls are everywhere. Brothers are always there. So tresure brothers more than chicks. I would balance them. That i have never done before, noticed that i lost all my friends when i broke up with ex. At least, there was Christina, Steph and Yu siew who bought me up when i fell.
I thought that i can love a person well when i was with Jun. But i am totally wrong. I forgot how to love since she left. But lets let me love and be loved as time goes. I will learn it again just for Jean.
I want my freedom. I want Jean to be happy. I dont want to be hurt again.
Dear. If i am too sensitive or filled too much with jealousy, tell me eh.
