Magic Kitchen
Its the 6th time watching magic kitchen since feb 2004. Everytime i watch it, it would remind me of that special person in my life.
The movie that inspired me to be a chef. Not an ordinary chef but the best of the chefs.
Now i remember why would i pursue for a set of almost two thousand buck knife. Thanks to the sponsorship to the movie thou its just a Zwilling J.A Henckles Twin Pollux chef which is on the mid range of the knives. I should say, its not only the movie that had inspired me on the knife set but the quality of blade that i have been using since i was 12?
I had a nightmare some nights back which Jun was in. Her current boyfriend or whatsoever wanted her hands for dont know what reasons and chopped her right hand diagonally leaving her with only her thumb. Intending to chop her left palm also, i just stood there watching. I dont feel hurt nor i wanted to help her.
Maybe, its just what i feel i should not help her since she have been ‘playing’ with feelings all the while that i think she deserves it.
Operation on my right knee is just 44 hours away with 20% chances of dying. I was thinking for several days. Will i regret dying at this tender age? I should say, i will never regret. I have acomplished my objective in life and am living my life already to the fullest.
I am perhaps going happy go lucky, satisified with my life. I always wanted to truely love a person. I have done that. I wanted to be a chef. I have already fufilled it. I wanted to be free. I had that.
Things are never to be fair. It might not balance.
For instance, i want friendship, reletionship, freedom and career.
I am never able to fufill that.
With reletionship, i will never get freedom.
With career, there will never be reletionship and freedom.
With friendship, there will still be freedom and career.
You will never get the best of both world.
Thats why i want to cherish my life till the very end. Who knows i will die an hour later? Perhaps a day? Maybe a week? Lifes unpredictable.
If i am gonna die the next moment, i would eternally think about what i’ve done one day before i die. Maybe a week before i die. Perhaps a year.
I never wanna weep for a girl again cos’ its no use. Smile when things are gone. Even if you cry, they will never return.
If i am gonna die later(duh. i am not gonna commit sucide la), to all that loved me, i love u guys. for those who hate me, please forgive me. For those who don’t know me, cherish your life. You will never regret that.
