cHeF dE sUeH wAh’S bLoG

She,

Was my first crush.

Then she was my first disappoiment.

There she was, my first love.

The first kiss i’ve recive was from her was so sweet.

Things turn winter to summer when she was by my side.

The warmth from her hugs, the comfot of her nursing me when i was terribly sick.

She did not care if she isnt well and keep me acompanied.

She dashes to my work place once she learnt that i am sick. She almost fainted as she has not had any food for the past few hours.

We were the sweetest couple for almost a year.

Things turn bad in the begining of 2005.

I hated her. I hated her attitute. I hated her friends.

She would cut her finger on purpose to vent anger on herself when she makes me angry.

And it went worse in April.

She was doing several projects which lasted for several months. I wasnt happy and made my own conclusions that she is just looking for excuses to be out with her friends.

We’ve broke up.

We’ve came together.

We’ve broke up.

We’ve came together.

This went on and on.

Summer is turning to authum, then winter.

My world got colder.

One day, we’ve finally broke up.

I’ve attempted suside.

She’ve got another guy.

Angryly ever after.

What is love?

After 2 years or three? I could only say, love is a feeling. Never look love nor you will hear love. Of course some can look and hear. But it may not be the truth.

The only truth, feel.

I’ve liked several people in my life. But not all of them i love. There was only one 1 truely love and she felt it. And she returned it to me. But it was only for that one girl. When she felt that i have slowly feed her less and less love, i realised it and she was already long gone. She could see from my eyes, hear from my tone and the actions i did. Thats it!

Its easy to find someone you like but not someone who you love. Even if you gives her love, will she accept it? Not all want to accept it but they do falsely accept it and gain something els in you. May it be money or anything els.

Now, i have found a girl but i dont know if she would like to have it. This feeling sucks!

I really felt like a microwave. Still, a very very big one. Cooking from the outside but still raw inside. I hate the feeling of loneyness.

Wait is all i have the answer for myself. I dont realise when that person is around. But when she is not around, i felt sooo bad.

Sorry. This is not a thread from mei jun. She is long gone. I am talking about the girl currently i am having feelings for.

By checking my e-mail, i see cherry(aka mei jun) updated her profile. I was like, so? And just deleted her mail. And after logging on to friendster, i just went by looking at it. And so? No big deal lo.. Her picture? Haha makes me weak again? dont make me tear by laughing. she will never have the power ONCE MORE. So i just dont bother her once more. Haha.

Now, i just concentrate on the girl i am after and i strongly believe that she would be here one day by my side.

Well, i have drempt of a girl who i knew in reality. I dont wish to mention who is she. All i can say, she is one of the best person who i knew.

I admired her a year(since i was with mei jun) and wanted her by my side. I know she is a good girl and i would never want to hurt her. maybe time will go by and she would be by my side one day. She was in my dreams several times and i know that things in there would come true just like the times before i was with mei jun or i even knew her. I drempt of a spot which i never went or knew of. And there it is. I was at that area with mei jun. coincidence? i dont think so. cos, i believe dreams would come true.

Hey girl. Listen up. I want you and as i have said, i will wait for you. haha when you turn 21, i finish NS liao! haha and really wish that you would be by my side when i educate in asian cuisine and go new zeland together. okie?

One and a half years have passed. Being a Shatec student is already a past. Its time for me to look for a job, excel in it, and there it goes~

Chiong army, go study a little about Asian cuisine while working, then bye singapore! New Zeland, here i come! I am not sure the path of my dear friends and classmates. But i do concern for this particular person. Or this particular lady. I dont know her path but sure, i am concern of her.

Sorry. Swissotel no more vacancy. So… Time for me to arrange sausages! 9-5pm, arranging sausages. Haha. SATS Kitchen!

Hey guys from Shatec. No matter i like or hate you guys, every single one of you i would remember. Majubur, i see u in bangadesh for crabs~ Bryannnnnn, i see u in phillipines for mangoes, Caleb, i see u in hong kong(real soon!) for tim sum, Harry, i see u in da bian to loose u in bangala ok? Bhisan, i will see u in nepal for momo ok? and Fatty~ i see u in surabaya to get samporeana.

Think… I wont be able to see you guys for a long long time.. But i will think back for the time we had together. Alright? Sorry for all the trouble i got to u guys alright?