cHeF dE sUeH wAh’S bLoG

Haiz. I enjoyed the freedom of being single. I go holiday without worries nor missing someone apart from my 2 little princess, snowy and million.

I flirt all i want, i does what i want, i worry nothing to quarrel with someone or someone to quarrel with me. I may not be friendly at times, but who cares?

Why another girl fell so fast? Looks like a girl who is much older than i am has fallen for me. Nope. She is not the one in my dreams. So its time to run!!! I knew she didnt even know that i am keeping this blog. So its fine to publish. whahahaha

Alright. I have fallen for a fren whom i’ve knew from secondary school while i was secondary 3 and shes secondary 1. So its been 2 years where i’ve first knew her. Shes sweet, understanding and really nice though not pretty. But her pros are so much stronger than her cons. I’m sure i would want her. But i dont know what she thinks. She is kindda bookworm, school counciller, smart and is like a model student. But me? I sux! I refuse to study, i tranish the school’s reputation as much as i could and never seemed to bother the school rules, doing whatever i want. But 1 thing i know. I am serious and have time to wait. So i will go for her! Kam pa te!

Yup. Its christmas. A Christmas never felt so lonely. All the dumbasses have their programmes and me? update my blog, surfing for airsoft sites that i am going hong kong for some wargames(Yeah!) and smoking a whole dumb packet of Marlbrol Lights. Kindda boring huh? Do i have a choice? At least the first christmas after three years not having any trouble. Thinking back the two christmas either quarrel with dad over time for me with Meijun if not, quarrel with Meijun. Remembering Meijun lost her bag 2 years back when we were hugging behing the pillar when some buggar with heavy slippers, dragging it wherever it went and we ignored him. He took Meijun’s bag and ran away!!!! Den we went to the police station to report it and she went home really really late. And we’ve got into a quarrel as i accidentally hit her right tit while trying to touch her face which she thought i did it on purpose.

Then last christmas, she was soooo fucked up which she took my wenger knife and almost slit it down her left wrist which i had covered her wrist and landed myself with a deep cut on my knuckle. The scar is still visable and it would be forever.

At least this, a peaceful christmas with my snowy and million and withouut those dumb chef from petals screaming at me cos i have ended my 6 suffering months as a free labour at the outlet traning!! wahahahha

Haiz…

time flies and i love it!

in that fucking shatec for the 12 dumb months reli make me look like an idiot staying there for no reasons. Just a piece of paper saying Jonathan Lim… Has been in the dumb school for 2 stupid years spending 6 months of it working free labour, 9 months being a cheap labour(My pay is lesser than my maid and obviously more work than a maid) and spent another 9 stupid months in the stupid school knowing whats vodka is made of, (the knife) this is the blade, this is the handle. This is a tenderloin and it is at the shin of the cow. Shit! i have known that since primary 1!

Joining shatec reli made me regret. Firstly, I wont loose her. She join ITE when she found out that i have join Shatec to keep herself from being bored. She is a person who has no target, ambition, comfidence nor friends. So she just joined ITE Bishan and got to know several SLUTS. and she have been following them, lying to me and eventually i turned violent and finally broke up. Working at a peaceful enviroment in a restruant in bishan serving microwave food and cakes made from eggs that contains H5N1 Virus. Ok. She was working there part time when we were still together and it looked alright. She came to know fuckers that eventually snatched her away from me and the fucker is on to her for sex. True! she was fucked and that bastard ran away. Wasting my time, heart, passion and money in that school. I should have stick to my plan, Flying to Canada on 9th Febuary, work in Bliss for another 6 months and voom! Shatec, At-sunrice or Le Cordon Bleu. This shit will never happend. All because i have this bro who is enrolling in the same course in the January intake so i joined. Stupid! But i came to know of several good friends as well as assholes. Ridicolus! Shatec is reli a loosers institution. Everything, Money! Instructors? all condammed from hotels and restruants. Lousy equipments, lousy instructors, almost down to the bin ingredients expecting to produce 5 star hotels results? shit u!

Sorry. I cant tell jokes that has low IQ. I cant care as much as some people does. I dont know how. I dont know how to show happyness. But i’ve tried my best. I cant sing nor dance, i am hot tempered and violent. I give chances. Once, Twice fine! But dont take it for granted. All i can do is to cook with love, passion and produce food that i can prepare best at my knowledge. I am no longer hilarious as i used to be(i cant!) i dont know how to love a person the way she wanted but i will give my best to it. Anyway.. Meijun, All the best. But this asshole is another ALEX. Trust me.

Was really tempted to have her back by my side going out with her(Cherry) the other day we’ve met.

Really want her nice little warm palm grapping mine again. Want her head on my sholders sleeping soundly in bus. Want her kisses from her heart on my lips. Want her hug, a thight one on my bed. She looked so sweet sleeping on my bed that i cant resist to land a kiss on her though she didnt know that.

I didnt like to see her being fooled, played, fucked by another asshole again. Though i dont understand lots of things and think the world owes me a living, i still understand some. I dont give her happyness. Yes. I adgree. It was the last few moments of our reletionship when i was struggling, stressed and confused if i would still be by her side. Then, i started to woo other girls(yes! this is really bastard). But eventually, she had another boyfriend 3 days after we’ve broke up. Fuck that ass! I’ve had another girlfiriend who had woo me but that reletionship was only 5 days. Yes. That girl is a babe. Shes sweet. But i just dont understand or want to understand her. Everyone is telling me to give up on Cherry. Though she had done so many things to get me into deep deep shit. But still, i love her very much. So i’d need her back.