cHeF dE sUeH wAh’S bLoG

I always think about this question which not much people does. Maybe after reading this, you should think about the same question i am having now.

Who, what and how to be a chef. A chef is someone who deserves respect, not force for respect. I will never never respect someone who forces me to do so. And one chef that i totally 100% respect, Leo from Bliss restruant.

What is a good chef? Nope. Not a single chef i can totally respect 100%. A good chef is one who guides you no matter what is your background or history. Well, Peter Tan, David Tan and Wong has failed. Does not throw temper at you for no reasons, no matter how busy he is. David tan has failed. Jokes, skive, smoke and laugh with you. Eats whatever staff meal you eat. Eric chiam has failed. What Shatec is feeding us is really DOG FOOD. What they cant sell, thats what we eat. Shit!

So.. Before you totally respect a chef, think about these points.

Ok. This page is dedicated by my most respected chef, Leo.(Not wen cong ah..)

This is how we’ve met. I was looking for a full time job in a kitchen and replied to an ed in a restruant in Punggol park, Bliss.

My first day of work, the manager who interviewed me(Ben) opened the door and only another guy in his late 30’s wearing a rugged t-shirt, combing his hair all the way back with lots of gel, went in.

What i expect in a kitchen? I dunno. Thats the first western kitchen i’ve went in. I asked that guy,"You’re the chef?" and his reply, "Nope. The chef will come later. I’m the dishwasher." And i asked for his name and sat a side waiting for the chef to arrive. He started to change and passed me the kitchen whites. He thaught me not to cut the lettuce for the deep fried main course. Why? The lettuce might turn brown the next day due that the carbon causes the lettuce to turn brown. Put water before you put ice, why? The lettuce might get frost bite and will turn to a darker tone of green which will start to rott the next day. Try not drying the lettuce for long enough. He will start to nag at you. I remembered this occasion(When i was doing the deep frying and garde manger) with 20+ Orders hanging, and he has like 10 orders(Main course) he just didnt help me. I was busy shaking the lettuce dry. He nagged me a whole 15 minutes. But after his nagging, i really learnt. This is the chef that i wanted. I wanted to learn from him more. We still meet often and he still give me tips. The last one, if u not happy with your chef, just keep quiet and fuck care. Do whatever he says and if any complaints, say it is him who had instructed. Just SHUT my mouth.

haiz. she had left me a long long time liaoz. yet, it seemed just yesterday.

yes. i do miss her. miss her pretty badly. but glad that she had another guy to care for her. she needed that. cos.. maybe she had too little friends, perhaps not one to share her trouble. Just like what happend to me when she have left me. i have neglected my friends and just fuck care everything. Its a world of us. Just the 2 of us. She was a loner since i’ve knew her in sec 1. And i have not done much to my brothers. I’ve really learnt never, ever to neglect them if i have another girl by my side(maybe). I’ve almost given up my life just because of her. She was my first. Yes. I admit that i am always the one petty(always throw temper on her if she makes me reli pissed), i am always the one looking for fights, the one who dont caRE for her feelings, the one who dont want to spent much on her.

I believe that a girlfriend is the one who goes thru the hard time with u, to share the joy with u and is happy enough for maybe a single rose or maybe a meal cooked urself to her.

Now, all i can do is to regret and  find a girl whom i can give whatever i can. Nope. Only not my life and my money. And i hope that she the last.

I’ve cooled down and just want her as a friend. If she is to kiss me again, i know i would be fooled again. For her birthday this year, will go all the way to KL to get her presand. I’m not kidding. Cos.. The manufacturers had stopped manufacturing the thing liaoz and there is a few left in KL and this might be her last birthday presand from me. Cos.. She dont even take me as a friend at all. But i’ve treated her as one. Things are getting back normal as what it used to before she came to my side. This 22 months of happyness will be always remembered.

Stupid lo.. Today go help papa work.. Den tml goin KL alone to get that thingy.

Hmm.. this was it. i was just surfing the web on Friday night listening to Tong hua when i just logged on to Friendster. I just saw this girl being hugged by a guy. I didnt see who was it and just clicked for a larger view of who it was. Dammit. Its her. Why her? Why that asshole is hugging her?

Yes. I still love her very very much yet, it seemed so far. I was stunned, listening to tong hua staring at her picture with my tears running down my cheeks just like the water from the tap running down the sink. Shit! Why did i not read who issit first then i click?

Mei Jun? My first love, hoping to be my last. She betrayed me, lied to me, lied to someone whom almost got me killed.

Botak was right. He told me this, "she loved me so much, why did she lie to police that i hit her mom?(The truth was that her mom hit me) Her mom asked her to do that." She could not have been doing this. Because that she is her mom, she dont have a choice but to listen and lie. And later her mom said that the police lied.(This incident was on 30 June)

How i found out the truth? Wow! This almost got me big on the papers. I went to Ang mo kio police station like a month back, with 2 knifes hidden in my pocket and bag. I tretend to kill myself if the truth is not revealed today. And after some negotiation, they agreed to tell me. THE POLICE ARE NOT LYING BUT HER MOM AND CHEN MEI JUN WAS LYING! Dammit!

Still, i dont reli hate her. I dunno y. Then it was 17 August 2005(Wed). I believe her that the police have lied.(Okay. This incident happend before i went to the police station to find out the truth.) I wanted her back at all cost and its just that i cant have another girl by my side. She is the only one. She came back to me. For like 5 days, we were back. I cooked her lunch on Thursday and never met her till Sunday where we had our last dinner together(i didnt know). And my dumb sis(shes mad) scolded her for no reason and jun just stormed out of the house. I cant contact her from Sunday nite till Tuesday afternoon. I used the last of my cash for 2 months to buy 2 tickets for Snow Wolf Lake(Xue Lang Hu) and 2 tickets for The maid. I went outside her workplace to let her see me before i’ve went to get the tickets. And when i’m back, she just isnt there already. I was fooled by the fuckers at Secret Recipe that she was here and there and resulted in me looking for her. The movie has started and i’ve yet to find her. Then, i was told she went home. Fuck!

The next day i’ve called her. Then i knew that she was back with that good for nothing asshole whom have snatched her from me. I NOW WANT HIM DEAD.

She still owe me like $800 and she just refuse to pay. Cheap huh?

If u get offended by any of the posts here, please get LOST.

No one is forcing you to read and if you want to please enjoy.

This is a personal space where i pen down my notes since that my diary is already dedicated to someone and now it belongs to her.

There might be times for me to point to a certain person whom i am speaking of and if u were the person whom the topic is about, u may choose to read and u may choose to leave. No one is forcing anyone to read!